Rafka is a very good player. Yes he noob-bashes and he becomes picky when he thinks his opponent is not newbie. But calling him names like that is not cool. Trash talking must be done when both players have the mind set for it otherwise it is just plain nasty insults. @Komito it certainly doesn't look good on you. Especially for someone who streams and moderates.
I can't really disagree with anything you've said, though Rafka is a special case, I can explain why my patience was lacking in that situation.
The following is absolutely not an excuse, and I do not want sympathy here. It's merely an explanation of why i've acted without my usual level of calmness i've shown in the past year in debates and arguments.
I was already extremely impatient after dealing with being in hospital every day for the past 9 days now, I spent all day trying to get in touch with my local GP because the doctor at the hospital told me to make an appointment and it takes hours to even speak to anyone. I recently discovered a medical issue which left untreated would result in death, the same thing my brother died from last year. It is affecting my immediate lifestyle and after cutting out certain things i've been quiet grumpy this past week in general.
This is not an excuse, I am not asking for special treatment or sympathy, I knew exactly what I was doing.
Despite all that, i'd still keep a level head on my live streams and on TUS.
Although ONL Discord is unrelated to TUS(Since TUS doesn't have an official Discord channel), most players are from the "Normal" community, so people are organizing their games there. That chat there is not isolated to this singular event with Rafka, this is me losing my patience with Rafka after continously seeing issues with him and having a disturbing amount of players complain about him in private ranging from mild to severe issues.
I am passionate about this game and it's community, people who abuse the system and generally disrespect sportsmanship and the spirit of competition really triggers me, even more so when we have amazing guys like StJimmy, Dario, Mablak, chuvash and others who put time and effort into making these streams so good, my streams would be nothing without the "Normal" community. All that activity and success is because most of them are really nice guys who treat each other with respect and have amazing skills!
Then there is Rafka!
Perhaps I need to rethink my behaviour on that Discord channel, I feel it's a place where we can all vent when we feel frustrated and fed up, i'm not the only person who said "nasty insults", used profanity and got involved in trash talk there. Though the person who posted this clearly has a personal vendetta against me.
While I stand by the decision not to let him play in future events i'm sponsoring with cash prizes due to his poor sportsmanship, I would normally not trash talk Rafka with that much profanity, so from now on, since he is the only person who i've acted with such profanity to, i'll make sure I don't have any dealings with him, and if he happens to take part in other areas of TUS i'll refrain from getting involved with him personally so only other moderators can make decisions about his actions.
I am not going to apologize to Rafka for the message behind what I said because I stand by it 100% even if my life was at risk, though i'll apologize for using too much profanity. Sorry.
I feel bad for how this looks for TUS and I apologize for that, sorry.