The truth is, it actually hurts me that I cannot ask Sensei to come on the podcast because we have this beef.
And I don't have any ill-feelings towards him whatsoever, but I believe if he came on he would use that as an opportunity to take subtle jabs at me like he does on these forums.
And me, the way I was raised, is never to start fights but to defend myself, so if he comes on, he'll say something, I'll say something one of us might get annoyed and now we've shared that ridiculous negativity with people who were watching.
I don't want to take that risk right now. Though I truly wish we could all have our differences and behave in moderation in certain places.
On the stream, I aim to show the very best of our community so that we can maybe show other people how amazing this game is... It's always important to make good first impressions, and since that's live...
Now, it's all about balance and moderation... If someone actually looks into my life they will see more good than bad, if their first impression is me arguing with Kradie or Sensei over some stupid rule, from their perspective. We are literally arguing about something completely alien to them...
But, people who have been part of WA as a whole, know that I try to do more good than bad, I am always trying to help people, be part of teams who win championships together, I give prizes, I create other environments for others to share more specific interests...
If your first impression of me is arguing about something they don't even understand, they why would they want to continue to explore that new world? It's dangerous for a living being to approach another living being without any kind of assessment.
Think of it this way, when you are streaming live, that literally has the potential for the ENTIRE WORLD to see, live, as in, as if you are right there... I don't want anyone's first impression of me to be some idiot screaming about something that makes no sense to them...
But on these forums, if you have reached this stage on your journey of the worms universe, you will already have a somewhat understanding of gaming communities always have drama, that's life... So it's more acceptable...
Even though we're MUCH better at co-existing, we will always find problems, then ways to co-exist again.
Trust me though, I love you all, without you this entire universe of Worms Armageddon wouldn't be as fun as it is, even the bad people, without the bad people the rest wouldn't find ways to eleminate bad things and keep the good... Just like evolution and how organisms evolved by learning how to co-exist.
I understand that it's ok to fall out sometimes, because it's just our way of trying to learn how to co-exist together, you can't learn if you run away, you have to push through the discomfort.
And I know, through being part of this game for over 25 years, all of you are WAAAAAY more good than bad, and that's why you have my respect in general, but not ALL the time.
This is moderation.