Long story short I'm taking a break.
I feel burnt out and want to f off and recharge a bit. About a week ago I told Mablak that after Episode 4 of the CWA Podcast I'd be taking a break, however the Clanner Playoffs for Season 28 has pushed me over the edge and I need a break from the entire game/community.
Sure, we could talk about the reasons why but it's pointless... Most players can't even take the time to sort out their own problems in this community and organize their own matches, make schedules then can't stick to them... So why would they care about my concerns when they don't even care about their own lol?
I'd rather not even post this and just disappear though that would be disrespectful due to having some unfinished business to sort out first:
TRL S32 & S33:
Season 32 - S32 will finish, the matches will still be streamed, the prize money will still be allocated to the winners. However I'm going to add a very strict deadline to this IF the players want to win the money, as I want to dissappear sooner than later and won't wait around. If you don't get it done by that deadline then it's your problem not mine.
Season 33 - If the end was nearer I'd just wait it out, but I want to leave ASAP so I am withdrawing the prize money that was being contributed from myself and the sponsor for Season 33 of TRL. Triad can either continue to donate his £100 or cancel it, that's his choice and is not to blame at all for either decision. I imagine MonkeyIsland will let the Season end but I'll let those guys figure it out between them.
Cups:
Renaissance of Roping will finish as normal as there's not long to go now anyway. The matches will still be streamed, prize money still allocated.
NrBnG K Cup will have a new deadline, if it's not met, then it just gets closed.
CWA:
Episode 4 of the podcast will still go ahead. The Discord server will remain active, KRD and others are admins there and well we will soon see if anyone else puts the effort in to keep it running and active lol.
I'd like to thank everybody who has helped out with CWA and streaming/competitive stuff over the past few years and all those who have taken part in all the wonderful events we've enjoyed together, you truly have made my time here worthwhile to me, thanks!
I know from myself that burnouts are no joke, so I would say taking a step back to recharge is probably the best decision you can make right now. You've done plenty for the community, and it's only fair that you take the time you need to focus on yourself. :)
Regarding my contribution to the prize pool, here's what will happen:
- I'll convert the prize money from £100 to $120.
- Winner of PO will get $90.
- Runner-up of PO will get $30.
- No third place prize, as that would shrink the prize pool.
- No POs = No Prizes.
- Prize money will ONLY be sent via Steam. I'll send the prize money as a gift to your Steam account's balance.
- I would love to send it via PayPal, but unfortunately, PayPal is not available in Turkey.
- There are sites that allow you to convert Steam money into PayPal money via skin trading (I know MeTonaTOR used one of these recently when he dropped a really expensive case in CS:GO), so if you want to use that money outside of Steam, you should know that there are ways to do it.
- Prize money will be sent within 72 houırs after the finals.
Nice one, thank you Triad!
Burnout sucks, rest well buddy and give yourself some time. :)
Hopefully this break is permanent
Quote from: Kaleu on May 22, 2024, 05:25 PM
Hopefully this break is permanent
Are you serious? If so.. Why?
We all contribute one way or another to the WA community. It would be shame to lose a active member.
Rest well.
Nah, I was wrong. Get well soon, you need it. Mental health is not joke. I can not bother to be that bad if it's serious.
have a good break m8, go do something diferent like play WA offline or something!! jk ae porraaaa
come to brazil porra to have fun with beaches and bitches!!!
Thank you for the support. Kaleu made me laugh because sometimes, I wish I could walk away forever lol. Though we all know this game is too good to walk away from...
This isn't really some whirlwhind heat of the moment thing either. I've spent the last 4 years of my life since my Brother passed away really thinking about what I want in life.
I've been spending my spare time doing impressive, creative and useful things in those last 4 years, I've grown up a lot and learned a lot.
This community gives me like 10% of what I truly desire in life... I have fame and recognition as a player via winning Leagues, awards and also have a few world records that I'm proud of. I have a few friends who are some of the most fascinating people I've ever conversed with. It's a community that allows me to be both a teacher and a student at the same time. I'm not even lying, I've had my fair share of "real life" magical moments with romance, competition, meeting impressive people etc... Yet this game has some of the most thrilling and intense moments I've experience in my life, from making friends, achieving glory as a single player and as a team player. Just some of the hilarious moments that this game is famous for with the kinds of mistakes you see in games that make you actually hurt from laughing... It gives me so much, but in such LITTLE portions and spaced SO FAR between each other that it's kind of like torture, like a drug waiting for more...
If you've ever heard this saying and understand it, Worms Armageddon is like my second home. I feel welcome and that the majority of the things I'm involved in bring happiness and fun to most players those things are aimed at. We all have our haters for whatever reason but there is a lot of satisfaction knowing that I achieve most of the things I try to achieve in this game. It's also a great feeling when you work together with other talented people in the community to achieve even bigger goals and projects together!
It's not enough though...
I genuinely feel like I can contribute something truly special to this world, now I'm not talking about curing cancer or ending poverty worldwide... More that I'm looking for a community that has MORE of the things I like, and less of the things I don't like.
To be involved in organizing or competing in events that draw bigger and more fun & enthusiastic audiences. To share availability with lots of other people with the same hours and make plans on a daily/weekly basis and feel no worry that it's probably going to get cancelled. To know that even if I don't show up, or a few others do not show up, that the event is big enough, popular enough and has enough support that it will still go ahead as planned anyway! To make lifelong friendships with those people in real life in person and go on adventures and journeys together doing other things.
Like, other gaming communities have meetups often and visit hometowns of anything related to their favourite thing... Like, to be SUCH NERDS we would all meetup in Yorkshire where Team17 Headquarters is, and all go out to explore, do activities, then go for a few drinks with some music, dancing, socializing!
That's how I'd LOVE to spend my spare time. I'm becoming desperate to be part of something, I've been thinking for the past month about selling all my PC, gaming, music and streaming equipment as well as some other bits n bobs and starting up a business, or relocating somewhere else in the world and starting from scratch.
How can I explain this lol... It's like, I'm depressed but I'm not depressed... I've got nothing major to complain about at the moment, I've got friends both online and offline IRL, my parents are still alive, I've got an amazing friend Dr. Drake Ramoray the cat, honestly he has me laughing every day, he's a bit clingy at times but that's a good thing, it means he likes me lol. Other than 2021-2023 there's never been a year in my life where I wasn't actively dating a girl so I've always had romance... I've got a roof over my head, entertainment within these walls, freedom to walk about safely(to an extent) outside and socialize.
Yet... I still feel like I'm living at like 10% of what's possible.
Obviously I've got my issues like everyone, many bad things have happened to me, but I'm generally always as optimistic and enthusiastic about being creative, competitive, to teach people, to be on time, in every aspect of my life, not just be respectful to my boss at work, but be punctual for literally EVERYONE, even my enemies.
I want to be part of something bigger!
It's not that anyone here even really does anything bad, yeah you get the odd racist or actual nut... That's very rare, for the most part it's just a chilled out casual community. In a pretty funny twist it's like I'm the kid full of energy always there, always waiting to play, always asking a million questions yelling about a million things all at the same time, and you're all the tired adults who just got home from work and can't be fkn bothered problem solving or being punctual because you just got finished doing those things all day lol.
So yeah, I need a break while I'm chasing some other avenues and opportunities in life and so things can calm down here a bit again.
nice post ae komito but stop come here to read the replies!!! u r on break porra!!! huahuahua
Quote from: nino on May 22, 2024, 07:49 PM
nice post ae komito but stop come here to read the replies!!! u r on break porra!!! huahuahua
After I wrap things up first! I've got my step by step plan in motion.
:D
Quote from: TheKomodo on May 22, 2024, 07:52 PM
Quote from: nino on May 22, 2024, 07:49 PM
nice post ae komito but stop come here to read the replies!!! u r on break porra!!! huahuahua
After I wrap things up first! I've got my step by step plan in motion.
:D
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What a wild threadname and ninovici de la samba immediately shows up
Well, sad to know your streams will not be available so much anymore. I particularly think you're the best streamer of WA community, in terms of competition analysis of gameplay, Playoffs, etc. The streams are usually with more people and they are entertaining.
Mablak and Ruffled Bricks streams are great to watch, but more for speed running and technical details. They are good to watch playing alone, but even when there are more people, they are not so fun to watch as yours.
Not to say that I'm a HUGE fan of interviews. So I'm really sad that this amazing project of interview legends of this community will end or take a break.
I do think that taking a break is important to mental health. I hope you don't abandon this community, I may criticize your wall posts and your behavior sometimes being stubborn about some specific things, but I must say that I really think that you are one of the most reasonable people in this community. Compared to many things I've read in TUS, your point of views and opinions give me hope in the human beings and this community.
I am nobody to say what you should do in your life, but I would like to say some suggestions that maybe could be good for your wellness. For example learning a new language is difficult in the beginning, but it can be something so great, you automatically learn a new culture when you're learning a language. In a course you can meet physical students that might become friends and not only colleagues with time. Taking a sabbatical year can be a great experience in life that you will never forget and will bring you stories that you will say to people forever. If you do have money and time for this, could be life changing. A psychologist is also a good idea if you feel necessary. Practicing sports regularly can also be very important for mental health, more than the body. The idea of starting a company can be good too. However, it is risky and can be very troublesome and stressful. You could also find a another hobby, besides WA, like Deadcode that is a Birder on his free time (or even while on stream he recognized birds live). Working on a cool job just for few hours wouldn't be bad too. Work dignifies man. The problem is the capitalism, if you can control how much you want to work and don't care so much about the money, well, it can be a bit easier and better to deal.
Just saying, I hope you don't judge me for this. You could also write a book if you enjoy writing so much. There are famous writers that sold a lot of books worldwide, because they used the money inherited from the parents to completely focus on the book, organizing and working on it seriously, knowing that there were no obligations with jobs to do.
You were right. I might be psychic after all.
I hardly played WA at all in the last 15 years, and I can say it felt good to do other stuff and even find time to try more other games than what I had been doing. And now after such a break it also feels good to be inspired into playing a bit again and creating WA maps - mostly thanks to this upcoming interview. Hopefully someone can step in to help run more interviews because they've been awesome so far.
I won't write too much here as living out the possibilities of the universe is surely relevant to what I have to say about Worms. I'm looking forward to being asked those million questions.
Thanks for kind words.
I am not quitting, it's just a break, I'll be back and will continue the Podcast stuff and organizing games, though I'm thinking as a player I'm probably done for life, it's just not enough for me, I want more than this community has ever delivered. Then by the time I come back I'll probably have even better ideas and more prizes to give away!
Learning a new language is a good idea... I'm definitely not short of hobbies, in fact maybe I have too many hobbies lol.
Though, making money is one of the lowest things on my list of worthy things to do in life, why do you think I give money away so often even though I make less than minimum wage lol, I'm trying to stay poor financially but wealthy in every other way, which is working for me. Life would actually be easier for me if money was the only pursuit.
I'm one of these lucky people who would literally rather die, and almost have multiple times in my life, than be walked all over by any corporation or boss. I made myself homeless and sold everything about 5 or 6 years ago for a fresh start and it was one of the best things I ever did. Including my PC and music stuff like speaklers, keyboards, my good NIKE golf clubs, my bike, TV, bed, and other things... At the time like it has all my worms stuff from 2008-2012 so I don't even have my WA replays and games stuff between that time now... THAT was a mistake because I thought I'd saved it all onto a hard drive but I was wrong lol.
Whatever though, it was worth it, my life improved dramatically when I gave up a lot...
That time is coming again, where I give everything away and/or sell it and get another fresh start, this time I don't need to go homeless though because I have my own house.
Edit - I just want to add a few things, for anyone who cares, feel free to ignore...
I feel kind of bad that I cannot finish the Season 33 of TRL as planned, though to be realistic it's just not possible with the situation I am in right now. Every month I put £50 to the side, actually give it to someone I trust and told them to keep it so it doesn't get spend on rubbish like takeaway or whatever... The money is already there for Season 32, the money is already there for the RoR Cup which will be over within the next 3-4 weeks max.
The money for Season 33 is only currently £50 there because Triad is paying his part, and since I'm going on a break I won't be able to fulfil the contract of streaming and advertising for the other £100 sponsorship money. We're not in the future yet lol so I don't have the other £50. However at least Triad is still putting money to the Cup, I'm very grateful for that he's a good man, thank you Triad!
Now, it will take 2-3 months until we reach the Playoffs for Season 33 which would start on 1st July, then we would have to wait an unknown amount of time anywhere from 1 week to several months for the players to actually organize their matches and finish the Playoffs so they can get paid... I cannot afford to wait potentially 3-4 months to wrap that up before taking a break that I need sooner than later. So I am still going to stick around to finish the other events since they are all wrapping up over the next month anyway and we've got the Podcast with Bloopy as well.
My hope is at the very least, once I've got things sorted on my end that Mablak and I can continue the CWA Podcast together if we're still around. We will see, I honestly don't know what the future will hold, though every fibre of my being is screaming at me to shake things up a bit and try to be part of something meaningful in my non-digital life.
I've had a lot of free time over the past few years due to having the support & freedom to get back on my feet while making a visible effort in life to get a good career, I've been studying for a while and working on my mental health and that time has come now for me to get back out there.
Also, as I get older, it's just not as appealing to sit indoors on a computer all the time, I lost over 10 stone in 2 years and I've put about 4 stone back on sitting here playing worms over the winter, part of this break is to focus on better dieting, exercising and to begin a new career. So even when I come back, It will be slightly less involved anyway as I'll have less time so will focus on the more stream/event side rather than be a player.
Godamn was that really the "long story short" version? If so, we should all be grateful. 🤣
After hearing the good news that komo will be taking a break(kidding), I have decided to return. So, I'll be seeing y'all soon in AG(not kidding). ✌️
Hey avi, wb. Hope to catch you for a few when I get back to W:A
Quote from: avirex on May 28, 2024, 04:39 AM
Godamn was that really the "long story short" version? If so, we should all be grateful. 🤣
After hearing the good news that komo will be taking a break(kidding), I have decided to return. So, I'll be seeing y'all soon in AG(not kidding). ✌️
lol
Welcome back Jeff.