[vesuvio`] hf
[ob-blitzed-zar] u2
[ob-blitzed-zar] I was there for a few years taken from hostpital to other to other
[vesuvio`] x.x
[vesuvio`] why that >?
[ob-blitzed-zar] cos I was ill, i guess
[ob-blitzed-zar] i tried to say look i wanna go home but they didn't listen they knew I was alcoholic so they put me into a rehab place, without choice...
[ob-blitzed-zar] that worked for a bit i stopped
[ob-blitzed-zar] but now drink
[ob-blitzed-zar] and i like it
[ob-blitzed-zar] still drinker, but with no mental illness like before.. i guess
[ob-blitzed-zar] gotta take medication day and night
[ob-blitzed-zar] no drugs now tho .. ok rank
[ob-blitzed-zar] rant over
[vesuvio`] you was forced to rehab 0o ?
[ob-blitzed-zar] yea
[ob-blitzed-zar] cos of illness they manipulate me
[ob-blitzed-zar] ..
[vesuvio`] but how? did u hurt some one ?
[ob-blitzed-zar] no
[ob-blitzed-zar] well i did say some bad stuff to family and friends one time when i was drunk :/
[ob-blitzed-zar] but didnt hurt
[vesuvio`] im scared
[ob-blitzed-zar] u have no need to be scared m8
[vesuvio`] wow u wont belive what i coullected there
[ob-blitzed-zar] nuke?
[ob-blitzed-zar] EQ?
[ob-blitzed-zar] magic?
[vesuvio`] nope
[ob-blitzed-zar] aqua.. hmmm....
[ob-blitzed-zar] super nana
[ob-blitzed-zar] actually I done a lot of bad things when I was younger but I turned my life to be good
[vesuvio`] yes aqua
[ob-blitzed-zar] I saw aqua :]
[vesuvio`] are you working to earn money ?
[ob-blitzed-zar] Not atm
[vesuvio`] no
[vesuvio`] how can u eat and stuff pay internet ?
[ob-blitzed-zar] I get money from being ill maybe?
[ob-blitzed-zar] and government/family
[vesuvio`] oh i thought that would only work in germany !
[vesuvio`] i didnt know goverment in england helps people too !
[ob-blitzed-zar] sure it does
[vesuvio`] cool
[vesuvio`] lol
[vesuvio`] wow
[ob-blitzed-zar] i used to work
[ob-blitzed-zar] i might again one day
[ob-blitzed-zar] and are u ill or no?
[vesuvio`] for the world iam :)
[vesuvio`] the world made me a super bimbo !
[ob-blitzed-zar] bimbo?
[vesuvio`] no body cares about my feelings or is sad for me ^^
[vesuvio`] yes i have to say yes and be calm to everything ^^
[ob-blitzed-zar] I know what u mean I feel like that sometimes
[vesuvio`] nothing i say is right
[ob-blitzed-zar] ppl just want u to fail
[vesuvio`] voices sumtimes tell me i have had to fight them before
[vesuvio`] i went like this
[vesuvio`] but i didnt fight
[vesuvio`] im not a street fighter im julian
[ob-blitzed-zar] oO
[ob-blitzed-zar] street fighter 2
[vesuvio`] :)
[vesuvio`] my desise is all about belivings and god
[vesuvio`] you know they belive iam ill and they want to be right. they want to be god !
[vesuvio`] but its got much worse than that :(
[vesuvio`] sadly
[vesuvio`] im done with this being god stuff ^^
[vesuvio`] there are things now in my mind wich call them self demons and kings
[vesuvio`] and they totally f@#!ed me
[vesuvio`] because they sound better than every f@#!n rapper on earth
[vesuvio`] its totally crazy
[vesuvio`] and im helpless
[ob-blitzed-zar] try and be good and dont expect shit in return
[ob-blitzed-zar] Some will be good to u
[ob-blitzed-zar] :]
[vesuvio`] ty
[ob-blitzed-zar] but yeah like u said about gods etc thats crazy might be true tho
[vesuvio`] so you dont have a girlfriend x.x ?
[ob-blitzed-zar] x.x
[ob-blitzed-zar] i wish m8
[vesuvio`] kradie is an asshole by the way .. he talks very bad about people like ous if he starts to get honest
[ob-blitzed-zar] u?
[vesuvio`] nope
[ob-blitzed-zar] Kradies a m8 bro
[vesuvio`] ye ? :)
[vesuvio`] first he was friendly to me too
[vesuvio`] it depends on what u want from him
[vesuvio`] oh ok
[ob-blitzed-zar] lol?
[vesuvio`] bl
[vesuvio`] !
[vesuvio`] happened to me too
[vesuvio`] oh
[ob-blitzed-zar] ow
[ob-blitzed-zar] gg
[vesuvio`] gg