Well, since I can remember i've been staying up as late as I can, I literally can't sleep well during the night, thats why I work nightshift lol...

Quote from: nino on May 13, 2011, 04:50 PM
komo, u r lucky, and not really addicted in any way, like my granddad, smoked for like 30 years, one day he said wont smoke anymore and he didnot smoke till die, some peoples are passive to get much more addicted than others imo, now next step, soop drinking forever, i bet thats much more hard for u xD

I know I wasn't addicted lol, that's what I was trying to say from the start lol... But, I wouldn't call it lucky, I am a believer anyone can do anything if they put their mind to it, you gotta control yourself, not let other things control you

Quote from: nino on May 13, 2011, 04:47 PM
why when u were 11 years old u were in the middle of night?

I was almost 12 !

Quote from: Husk on May 13, 2011, 04:24 PM
Why were you 11 years old in the middle of the night?

Why was it the middle of the night when I was 11 years old?

Quote from: Cueshark on May 13, 2011, 03:41 PM

Quote from: Komito on May 13, 2011, 03:28 PM
D1, my Grandfather wasn't doing badly, he was in great shape, I was staying with my uncle because my parents were on holiday, was night before they were coming back.

Cue, phone calls in the middle of the night don't usually mean news THIS bad, but yes, it's a common thing but considering I was 11 years old at the time, I was too young to have proper knowledge of life and death didn't completely understand really anything I do now, so, being 11, it was common for me to see phonecalls like this, it was the 1st time in my life after all.

But I was very close to my Grandfather, propably closer to him than my Mum and Dad, for being a kid, I don't know why or how I knew, but I always tell myself that in his final moments he was thinking about me, and maybe that's it...

Why were you awake in the middle of the night at 11 years old?

Cuz I was 11 lol..

Why were you not awake in the middle of the night at 11 years old?

I am proud though, I only had 3 cigs, compared to the normal 30-40 I normally have when drinking, i'm fcking astonished it's amazing xD

So far 5 days without cigs, then got completely smashed drinking from 8pm-5am and in that time only had 3 cigs, f@#!ing miracle to me xD

D1, my Grandfather wasn't doing badly, he was in great shape, I was staying with my uncle because my parents were on holiday, was night before they were coming back.

Cue, phone calls in the middle of the night don't usually mean news THIS bad, but yes, it's a common thing but considering I was 11 years old at the time, I was too young to have proper knowledge of life and death didn't completely understand really anything I do now, so, being 11, it was common for me to see phonecalls like this, it was the 1st time in my life after all.

But I was very close to my Grandfather, propably closer to him than my Mum and Dad, for being a kid, I don't know why or how I knew, but I always tell myself that in his final moments he was thinking about me, and maybe that's it...

When my Grandfather died, I was staying the night at my uncles, halfway through the night, the phone rings, I just knew right there and started crying, even before someone answered the phone, unfortunately, I turned out to be right, my Grandfather had died...

I am actually impressed... I got annoyed in s "warmer" with shady os and flowingwater, so I decided to go shop, get some food, I got crisps, and sticks of cheese, and f@#! ME, the cheese and crisps taste more, "powerful" than before...

This "no smoking" thing, is starting to seem really really really f@#!ing good, D1, thank you very much, for being a part of the reason I decided to stop

OMFG MAN, EVEN SALT N VINEGAR CRISPS WITH CHEESE TASTE 100000 TIMES BETTER !!!

Seriously... Am I trippin or something, I can't believe how damn good, these salt n vinegar crisps taste right now, normally, alcohol makes me a bit hungry when tired but WOAH MAN !!! This is amazing, those were seriously the best crisps and cheese i've ate for like, at least 10 years lol...

I swear, I am ordering a MASSIVE! PIZZA tonight !!!!!!

D1 lol, although I still stand by everything I say (probably stupidly) I just tested, smoking another cig, and after 2 puffs felt totally disgusted, and put it out, and I actually made an angry gesture towards the cig, that in MY language is like "f@#!ING c@#! WASTED f@#!IGN 14 YEARS OF MY f@#!ING LIFE MOTHER f@#!ER" but in half a second and a flick of the wrist...

D1, you were right, I was wrong, smoking IS bad, although I enjoy it, and accept I am NOT addicted, I still LIKE it, but realise it has no use and/or place in my life, I feel better already, I can't explain enough how grateful I am, one day, I will do something very VERY good for you and you won't even expect it...

Quote from: darKz on May 13, 2011, 03:07 AM
Imo it would be interesting, map whoring is not a good thing

Why? There is no logical explanation against it, considering the logical explanation for it..


Alot of people like using maps they "like" the way it's played on, alot of others don't, tbh, it's kinda 50/50, everyone has repeated a map at some point in some scheme lol, if ANYONE is "really" good, they should beat a "map whorer" no problem...

Quote from: darKz on May 13, 2011, 02:48 AM
Something like most played map for each scheme followed by the percentage?

Why?

I mean, is this really important, theres over 300 OTHER players to play lol...

Quote from: nino on May 13, 2011, 01:24 AM
i always put in my mind that, if one day i really quit smoke, i have to quit drinking too, i dont really care for drinking, i used to drink a lot when  younger, then going to drink in some bars then bang some girls and f@#! and go home sleep, but nowadays iam very quiet, just making my plans with girls and f@#!ing in a darkside place lol, and when iam home i never drink alone.

I can not smoke, but I can not drink and not smoke, I am addicted to smoking, while under the influence of alcohol, BUT, I am NOT addicted to cigs when sober...

Am I weird or something? Or is that normal?

Quote from: nino on May 13, 2011, 01:17 AM
looks like u r much more addicted in alchool than nicotine, poor komito xD

After tonight, I quit drinking for a while, so in 3 months, with no smoke, maybe I can drink with no smoke, but still I only had 2 cigs so far, cuz drink, and normally i've had 20 by now... I normally smoke 40+ cigs in one night drinking, so 2-3-4 cigs is a VERY VERY big improvement for me, atm... I will try to manipulate my own mind further, and stop this nonsense...

Gj oz man, seriously, franz is f@#!ing good xDxDxD

f@#!er beat me like 3 times outta about 10 in FB BnG...More than anyone else xD

I loved BnG'n with franz xD he got skill and style

Ok so I am a little tipsy now, had 2 ciders, and 5 vodkas lol, and thinking about having a cig, I know I don't need one, it doesn't bother me to go without, but I just "want" one, if that makes sense?

Ah f@#! man, wtf is it about alcohol that amplifies your desire for a cig? I actually really want one now... I was fine when I was 100% sober... It just tastes so f@#!ing good when drinking...

Ok, I just smoked 1 cig, i've had 1 cig, and it tasted pretty shit cuz I haven't had one for 4-5 days, but, I got a serious head rush and THAT felt weird, but sorta like, druggy lol, like, I felt this intense rush to my head like orgasm in my brain or something...

I am confused now lol... I will try to not have anymore see what happens...

I won't be doing that again, actually felt horrible after 5 minutes, starting to realise it is better without although I KNOW I still enjoy the feeling of smoking... I just had to try 1 while drinking to see the effects... And now I know so, yay xD

AH seriously,k I cannlt NOT smoke while drinkiing, that's 2 cigs i've had now in 5 days... I can't heklp smoke while drunk lol, i can avoid when not dirnkioing wtf !!!