No, I never thought b2b was all about me, b2b always was and should have always been about enjoying BnG, sharing our passion for the scheme with the community, but you all lost track of that and lost interest, not to mention Mablak and a few others sharing information about notching with the public which we had ALL agreed to keep secret as not to ruin the integrity of the scheme, I got depressed about that and when I was drunk I got angry and jokingly said i'd quit and make a new community, then most of you turned against me because of that.
The truth is, I could have taken control of b2b and removed you all and started fresh, as I was the founder, wormf00d being the co-founder, MonkeyIsland even asked me what I wanted to do about the situation with the community on TUS, but the reality was that you were the people who I thought showed a high level of interest and passion to BnG in the Worms community, and I honestly thought that if I left you would continue to build the community and celebrate the scheme we had all grown to love, I trusted you, what an idiot I was to trust you all.
I now regret my decision because none of you got involved with the community, none of you continued to push the scheme, none of you continued to host any events or try anything new.
You killed the community, it is not a bad thing that you cared more about your friendships and playing other games and doing other things together than being involved with BnG, but b2b was supposed to be focused around BnG and you could just have as easily left and created a new community if that's truly what you cared about.
Ever since that moment, you all grew into some sort of elitist private community, BnG has never been the same, you could have supported the scheme publicly but you didn't, all I ever asked of you all and tried to do myself was support the scheme, no wonder I got fed up with some of you, you turned your backs on the entire purpose of the community and what it stood for.
Regardless, before it all went tits up, still definitely my fondest memories of playing this game was with my time in b2b.
If I were so toxic, I would not have trusted you to look after the community.
The one thing that really bothered me though is, I said "I quit" once and it gets taken so seriously and never forgotten, yet all the hard work and effort I put into creating b2b, recruiting and helping us to grow, the amount of time I spent teaching other players, all the great games between us and all the times I said "b2b forever" countless times, and nobody cares? Just goes to show you the true desires of humans, anger and revenge, rather than forgiveness and peace.
Bah, thinking about this again is depressing...