Quote1. some things make you happy in the short term, but miserable in the long run.
and what if bigger goals are worth suffering in the short run? after all, we prioritize long-term things all the time. we save money and invest, we avoid drugs, and so on
Keep in mind, I believe everything has meaning, it is just a matter of perspective, and it is entirely subjective.
You say ''what if bigger goals are worth suffering in the short run?''? Am I wrong to assume that this thinking is associated with expectation and what society expects from you as Individual? If a person fails at their goals, it still has brought meaning to their character. If you have no expectation, there will be no disappointments.
Quote2. why exactly happiness should determine our purpose? this has a well-known ending, called hedonism.
i'd say happiness is just a criteria of life's quality. but it cannot fullfill life's meaning
I am sorry that you can't find meaning in happiness. But I do, it is a matter of perspective. If you know something that makes you feel good, you would wish to continue this. Btw, I am not talking about drugs.
Quotei'm agnostic, i don't believe it, but I don't deny it either. it's simply beyond subjective experience
Wouldn't it be nice to unite with people or something you had close relation to after you die? Just put religion aside and try answer honestly.
Overall, I think your thinking is unhealthy but I think also it Interesting purely out of academic purposes.